Good morning !
Dare to explore the dark side of life. Light ( what your praying for) cannot be produced until we enter into new experiences which yield the treasures, ideas, and secrets that have been hidden.
Isaiah 45 And I will give thee the treasures of darkness, and hidden riches of secret places, that thou mayest know that I, the Lord, which call thee by thy name, am the God of Israel.”
Isaiah 45:3 KJV
Would you dare to focus on wisdom to reveal truth concerning what you may have been avoiding being your blessings? Your frustration is encouraging you to explore different venues of life, but you’ve gotta become vulnerable and enter the dark side ( places you haven’t been before or understood)!