Darkness has found its way in my life time and time again. However while talking with a friend I found myself going down memory lane remembering how I experienced depression as a child and did not know it was depression. I remember how I felt heavy, gloomy, mad, emotional, and sad most days of the month. I would begin to say I had 29 dark days and 2-3 light days depending on the month.
I recall in my twenties God opening the reality that I had lived a life of depression, but the problem that came to light was now that I know I am experiencing depression and not just a miserable person what do I do?
I made and appointment with my primary care doctor, who referred me to a mental health therapist.
I was excited to start the sessions with this person, because I had been so unhappy for so long that I just wanted peace.
Well myself and the therapist met… She was very nice and i liked her. She did and assessment and recommended I come once a week. Along with the sessions she recommended that I talk with my primary care doctor about medication to help with the depression symptoms.
I did as she asked. However, my reason for writing is to let everyone who reads this post know that there is know escaping dark seasons. It is wonderful to have a support system while your going through such times as I have and continue to, but the missing ingredient to the issues I had was CHRIST.
Christ is familiar with darkness, depression, oppression, obsession, recession, sickness, disease, ADHD, ADD, Asperger’s, bipolar, schizophrenia, HIV, PTSD, compulsive behaviors and even sexual dysfunctions.
What we find though is people in our families putting off or even negating to accept that they need mental help or attention. Many people are embarrassed to go to a therapist or marriage counselor, because of stigmas. But when we think about the body and the stressors we experience living through the economic, political, and social issues we have to put pride aside and think of the value of maintaining our mental state.
If your okay with going to the doctors for physical challenges why not consider going for memory loss, or depression. You see the earlier the symptoms are dealt with the less progressive the challenge becomes.
Things to consider
*Wanting peace and doing what it takes to receive peace
*Prolonging mental health challenges can become severe or permanent
*Understand Its okay to have a support system such as therapist, psychiatrist, life coach, or even marriage counselor.
The purpose of these professionals are to evaluate and recommend healing in the measure that’s suitable for each individual they work with.
Back to the darkness in my life…. I found Christ because of this darkness, I also found my ability to create. For instance I found that I was able to cut hair through the depression I experienced and the most wonderful thing about this was I found cutting hair to be like a prayer. I mean I would go to a place when I began to start a cut a place that was heavenly. If I was angry or had been experiencing a bad day, the hair cut would change my perspective, attitude, along with the thoughts of anger, which would fade away. The other thing I think of is how my children were formed in my belly, in total darkness. For nine months each child that is born is formed in darkness, which when you really think about what’s written pertaining to birth and discovery it gets a little deep! However, many of us have been taught darkness is bad. Gods word say’s, Isaiah 45:7King James Version (KJV)
7 I form the light, and create darkness: I make peace, and create evil: I the Lord do all these things. As I allow myself to think unlimited also looking at my pain clearly and the blessing that came from my dark days, my perspective began to change.
I started to rethink things regarding darkness being bad, because so much good comes out of darkness. What we do not know we find in the darkness. Even the bible tells us that God created light… created light! Out of darkness so we find it is Good.
Let me know your thoughts on darkness, because the Spirit of the Lord is really challenging my thoughts. The other thing is do not prolong mental health challenges you or a family member might be experiencing. Call your primary care physician to get the resolve you need!
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6 When Jesus saw him lie, and knew that he had been now a long time in that case, he saith unto him, Wilt thou be made whole?
7 The impotent man answered him, Sir, I have no man, when the water is troubled, to put me into the pool: but while I am coming, another steppeth down before me.
8 Jesus saith unto him, Rise, take up thy bed, and walk.
9 And immediately the man was made whole, and took up his bed, and walked: and on the same day was the sabbath.
When you read this passage of scripture, immediately your attention is captivated by the fact that the impotent man answers the question Jesus asked Him through his feelings of sorrow related to his condition. Jesus asked, “Wilt thou be made healed?” The man answers saying, “I have no man to put me in the water.” The thing is Jesus never asked him if he had someone to put him in the water. Jesus simply asked, “WILL YOU BE MADE HEALED!”
This reminds me of myself and others Christians who walk through trials making excuses for receiving the blessing or even a healing we have been asking and praying for. As we’ve prayed regarding the infirmity or the increase we’ve desired, we look over the necessities that progress our healing mentally, spiritually, and physically. For instance; if your diabetic you shouldn’t eat candy unless it is candy regulated for diabetic diet. If your diabetic eating regular candy why would you expect a healing in your body? In reference to the scripture we create excuses, which delay and detain our blessings. We pray for a thing yet cause adverse effects regarding the thing were praying for. EXCUSES not to change, EXCUSES that detain our blessings like the impotent man who was fixated on there being no one there to help in the water. He is now in the scripture making excuses regarding his situation and Jesus only wants to know if he has faith to be made whole.
If your in need of a healing and your praying for it just receive It. Stay away from conversations that involves why you have not or cannot make the meeting with your healing. Step over into the realm of faith and receive what’s already yours! In Jesus name!