Darkness and mental health

Darkness has found its way in my life time and time again. However while talking with a friend I found myself going down memory lane remembering how I experienced depression as a child and did not know it was depression. I remember how I felt heavy, gloomy, mad, emotional, and sad most days of the month. I would begin to say I had 29 dark days and 2-3 light days depending on the month.
I recall in my twenties God opening the reality that I had lived a life of depression, but the problem that came to light was now that I know I am experiencing depression and not just a miserable person what do I do?
I made and appointment with my primary care doctor, who referred me to a mental health therapist.
I was excited to start the sessions with this person, because I had been so unhappy for so long that I just wanted peace.
Well myself and the therapist met… She was very nice and i liked her. She did and assessment and recommended I come once a week. Along with the sessions she recommended that I talk with my primary care doctor about medication to help with the depression symptoms.
I did as she asked. However, my reason for writing is to let everyone who reads this post know that there is know escaping dark seasons. It is wonderful to have a support system while your going through such times as I have and continue to, but the missing ingredient to the issues I had was CHRIST.
Christ is familiar with darkness, depression, oppression, obsession, recession, sickness, disease, ADHD, ADD, Asperger’s, bipolar, schizophrenia, HIV, PTSD, compulsive behaviors and even sexual dysfunctions.
What we find though is people in our families putting off or even negating to accept that they need mental help or attention. Many people are embarrassed to go to a therapist or marriage counselor, because of stigmas. But when we think about the body and the stressors we experience living through the economic, political, and social issues we have to put pride aside and think of the value of maintaining our mental state.
If your okay with going to the doctors for physical challenges why not consider going for memory loss, or depression. You see the earlier the symptoms are dealt with the less progressive the challenge becomes.
Things to consider
*Wanting peace and doing what it takes to receive peace
*Prolonging mental health challenges can become severe or permanent
*Understand Its okay to have a support system such as therapist, psychiatrist, life coach, or even marriage counselor.
The purpose of these professionals are to evaluate and recommend healing in the measure that’s suitable for each individual they work with.

Back to the darkness in my life…. I found Christ because of this darkness, I also found my ability to create. For instance I found that I was able to cut hair through the depression I experienced and the most wonderful thing about this was I found cutting hair to be like a prayer. I mean I would go to a place when I began to start a cut a place that was heavenly. If I was angry or had been experiencing a bad day, the hair cut would change my perspective, attitude, along with the thoughts of anger, which would fade away. The other thing I think of is how my children were formed in my belly, in total darkness. For nine months each child that is born is formed in darkness, which when you really think about what’s written pertaining to birth and discovery it gets a little deep! However, many of us have been taught darkness is bad. Gods word say’s, Isaiah 45:7King James Version (KJV)
7 I form the light, and create darkness: I make peace, and create evil: I the Lord do all these things. As I allow myself to think unlimited also looking at my pain clearly and the blessing that came from my dark days, my perspective began to change.
I started to rethink things regarding darkness being bad, because so much good comes out of darkness. What we do not know we find in the darkness. Even the bible tells us that God created light… created light! Out of darkness so we find it is Good.
Let me know your thoughts on darkness, because the Spirit of the Lord is really challenging my thoughts. The other thing is do not prolong mental health challenges you or a family member might be experiencing. Call your primary care physician to get the resolve you need!

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Montevista Psychiatric Hospital 702 364-1111
WestCare Emergency Shelter 702 385-3330
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WestCare Detoxification Center 702 383-4044
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Prayer call

Prayer Call for Healing
Yesterday I received word that a childhood friend is in the ICU with an aneurysm in his brain the size of a grape. They can’t find the source of the bleed, so he is being kept sedated to keep his bp stable. I also received word that my favorite uncle, who has been fighting cancer the last 2 years, was told that he will be on chemotherapy the rest of his life and that he won’t last long if he were to stop the treatments. I am also lifting in prayer a few others that are sick or were given a troubling diagnosis, recently. We all know that God is a healer and that He always has the final say.  
With each phone call or text of receiving this news, I felt a powerful need for prayer welling up inside of me, along with this scripture: 

Ezekiel 16:6 And when I passed by thee, and saw thee polluted in thine own blood, I said unto thee when thou wast in thy blood, Live; yea, I said unto thee when thou wast in thy blood, Live.
I put my loved ones and friends name into the scripture and prayed this over them, in the name of Jesus! Please join me in lifting our people up in prayer and in Jesus’ mighty name, we command healing over all ailments, sickness and disease that is troubling their bodies! We intercede and ask for favor and mercy, for the pain they are going through! Father God, we call upon your love and light and that every person that is ailing is immediately filled with your holy spirit that provides peace and comfort beyond words. We put all this into your hands, oh God, and we ask that Your will be done! In Jesus name, Amen!
Romans 8:1-2 & 6. There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.
 2 For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus hath made me free from the law of sin and death.
6 For to be carnally minded is death; but to be spiritually minded is life and peace.
Anora Rivera

K.I.M.R 94.5  





Peoples are waiting on you

Good morning,Moments of rejoicing come to mind when you read Romans 8:18 For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us. But for some they shiver at the idea of suffering, the question is why are we suffering? I know I have suffered at my hand of choice, meaning making my own choices instead of waiting and praying for Gods guidance. There are sufferings for Christ which is a part of the life of Christianity, but this is the seed that we see daily; people who confess to live a Christ filled life, but adverse to live His life of purity. In this case we create our own sufferings our children see the adverse demonstrations. Cursing and fighting, dope dealing, smoking and selling, having sex out of marriage, people, bad attitudes, making excuses to change, lying and scheming to get over on others. Just examples to get the minds thinking for Christ. Sex outside of marriage deadly for those dating… You may have done this all your life, but life in sin comes to a end. And God does not cover sin… He has no place in it.

Our way has never worked which is why we chose to give our lives to the savior. Controlling our lives when we say we live in Christ and living unholy is other reasons for unnecessary sufferings. These things we allow in our lives bring on stress and toxicity, causing sickness and sadness… Some of the tears were not for the suffering that belong to Christ but the suffering of our selfish nature. 

Remembering purpose 19 For the earnest expectation of the creature waiteth for the manifestation of the sons of God … Everyone has been a creature waiting to birth into the creation of God. While many are waiting today for the redemption of Christ in them we have to ask ourselves, who is waiting on me? For we are sons and daughters birthed out of the creature mentality, the corruptible is gone we’re filled with holiness so so where are we in Gods plan for greater Good? 

God bless you

K.I.M.R 94.5